
i scoured the place:
an empty soft pack of camels, little debbie brownie wrappers, cut-up school brochures, notebook paper, a bottle of hand sanitizer, gum, 1/2 a can of strawberry soda, pieces of wax, half pencils, broken pieces of metal, earrings, suckers, condom wrappers, kleenex wads, frayed pieces of wool, etc.
i put it, dust and all, in a box and threw it in a dumpster.
and all the while, i couldn't stop thinking about the shit-smelling people who made the mess for me, who walked through and left behind what they didn't want, hoping against hope that no one would ever do the same thing to them. i couldn't stop thinking about their fat faces and the way they'd stumble up the steps to the door, weighed down by their own skin and an inability to metabolize half their diets. i thought of their ugliness and their mean spirits, walking past me, all uppity, haughty, hoity-toity, ignorant and so far from bliss even they could sense it.
i fucking hate cleaning up after people, after folks who probably keep their own homes spotless. or don't. who fucking cares? stop leaving your shit for me to sweep up, you toads.
i'm turning into a misanthrope - hateful and suspicious from my spinning head down to my freezing toes.
i'm turning into a curmudgeon, and i'm not yet 30.
people i don't even know are ruining my days, and i am letting them.
the insurance is nice though.